Stop being so wonderful for like 2 seconds so that I can work on job applications!!
I did not get the job…
Just because you say you are sorry doesn’t take back what you did or said. Saying sorry doesn’t mean I will forgive you for yelling at me for changing the mirrors in a car that doesn’t belong to you in the first place. Saying sorry is pointless for you. You always say sorry then do the same thing over and over again. Sorry is not a magical word. It is just something you say to start over. I would probably forgive you if I felt you were actually sorry, but I feel like everything that comes out of your mouth is just bullshit. What ever happened to the fun lovable Native I knew so well? The let the monsters of the big city steal away every ounce of decency you had and replaced it with the typical tool mode.
If you want me to believe that you are sorry do not do it in the first place because your words are no longer good to me.
Before i go to bed just wanted to say that I am safe and sound in Chicago in my friend’s apartment. I have a hoodie that smells like my bf and my mr.hippo. Today was such a long day. Megan T. freaked out on me at dinner. Megan G. is worried about her college projects. And little old me just stuck in the middle trying to make everyone happy.
The last time I left the state my then boyfriend cheated on me with one of my supposed best friends. I know my wonderful boyfriend would not do a thing like that just thought I would share that fact. I miss Kevin dearly. I haven’t spent more than four days away from him since before we started hanging out. I am sure some space will be good for us but I just miss him so much. I am glad I at least have a hoodie that I can snuggle up wif.
Anyways it is 1:39AM Chicago time. Gotta catch some sleep. Busy day tomorrow do what I do best… Taking orders, making people laugh, fucking shit up.
Ps. I might be getting my tattoo touched up tomorrow! I hope I can!! I need it!!!!