Care-uh

I just wanna take your pain away. Make you smile like you did before things went bad… You deserve happiness..

I just wanna  run away… Leave this so called life behind… Go somewhere new.. Where no one knows me..

I just wanna cry.. Scream at the top of my lungs. I am not okay.. why can you not see that? Why wont you just hold me close?

I just wanna punch you in the face… You make me so angry! Why can you just be there like you should be… You are the only things i have left…

I just wanna crawl..into a cave and be alone.. let you all forget about me.. Because you have already started to…

I just wanna okay.. Why isn’t anything i do or say good enough?

I just wanna be okay… I wanna feel like i am special.. Important… Worth something…

I just wanna…

Might have cheated on me…

Story: Two of my really good friends told me that he might’ve cheated on me.. Because he was acting sketchy when i was gone in Chicago. My friend B said “Well you hungout with your ex, so why does it matter what Alex did”… Background on the me haning out with my ex. He is the one currently f*cking my best friend. I just don’t know what to think or who to believe… so unless someone can give me the name of the person he cheated on me with.. i am going to believe him… I just hope that i am not getting f*cked over… because i don’t play those types of games…

July 12th 2011.

Mood: Annoyed.

Currently doing: Posting blog on tumblr and planning on my trip home.

Thoughts on today: Today will suck.